sensitivity.

Its been 4 weeks since Sem 1 started and I seriously can't believe it myself. My modules are getting harder and maths for this semester is just ridiculous? When in my career life am I going to use differentiation? And it takes me A LOT of time to just finish a single accounts question and end up getting everything wrong. Compared to last sem, time is flying by REALLY fast. I saw a random post on Tumblr and it mentioned the word '10 months' and it just hit me real hard to realize that there's 2 months left till a new year is going to start soon. As I'm writing this, I still cannot believe that fact. Maybe its cause college started during May and it feels different from when we start school back in primary and secondary school. I guess time really flies when you're having fun. 

But at the same time, I don't think its that fun at all.

Recently there's just been more and more drama all over the place and I somehow feel that our relationships are all drifting apart. I guess why my aunt said was true after all. Try not to get too attached to friends in university. You'll end up drifting apart anyway. Well I can't say that the drifting apart of relationships are applied completely on me, but at least I'm somehow a part of it? Well I have to say it does feel kinda sad having our distances drifting apart, but I'm glad that at least I'm able to cope with it. I'm not going to mention names here cause who knows that anyone could be reading this right now, but I feel that the people around me needs to change. BIG TIME. Of course I also have my fair share of need of change in attitude/personality/thinking, but all these drama that is whipping up these few days is just ridiculous. Yes, yes we girls are very sensitive, over think all the time, get emotional, frustrated and we tend to have a bad temper, but even as a female bystander's point of view, I sometimes really can't stand what I am seeing anymore. 

Another thing, I think we really need to learn how to just let go of things.

Everything that is going on in your eyes tend to have another reason behind it. You can either leave the situation or accept the facts and just go along with the flow. I know its pretty hard for some people but please, just try. I don't mind how long it takes, just at least open your eyes and realize that some things can't just change with constant "What am I supposed to do?", "but she/he..." etc. Trust me, if you choose to leave the situation and just move on, it'll just make your life SO MUCH BETTER. Until this very day I still can't believe I'd bring up small chats with people whom I knew that once hated me at some point and the ones I once hated so much in my life. I feel so much better to just forget about everything and just look at things positively. So what if someone's trying to leave you or you feel that you are both drifting apart? Is that person hating you to the very bottom her heart? Is she ignoring you like how she ignores others? Does she feel disgusted the moment she sees you? No. She still talks to you. She doesn't avoid you. She still calls you by your nickname. Try to appreciate that you didn't lose a friend. At some point in our lives, some of the people we call friends will become acquaintances, and even acquaintances just become strangers and we forget about them. If you feel left out and yet you don't wanna feel that way, try your best to join them. Stop contradicting yourselves. You're just making yourself sad and frustrated at the same time.

I hope you realize all this.