5 things I miss about Japan.

 Nabana no Sato.

Purikuras.

Sunrise. 

Homemade food.

Exposure to tradition.

beautiful names.

Tiffany

Hayley

Layla

Margaery

Emma

Lily

update.

I received an email yesterday, informing that I failed Macroeconomics. Just great. Its not that I didn't expect failing any of the subjects, but its just that econs was the subject that I studied my ass off the most, because I had the worst results for econs last semester out of all the subject. I was on the verge of failing. For sure I was upset about it, and I kinda laughed it off. I seriously don't quite know how I would survive Year 1. I'm still currently hesitating whether or not to continue my studies in Nottingham, since HELP offers Applied Psychology as well. To top that off, the tuition fees are at a MUCH lower rate compared to Nottingham.

This holiday has been pretty hectic. Surprisingly it isn't as boring as my previous holidays. I've been playing Bravely Default for 2 weeks, and finally completing the game. I stayed over the bestie's place for 3 days, had a catch up session with Angela, went to Ann Sen's house just to laze around and sing karaoke (which wasn't even karaoke, just my phone connected to the projector and blasting the music through his sound system). Man his karaoke is just filled with super old songs. I had my haircut yesterday, which I took a bold step to get bangs again, but a flexible air bangs cause I can just sweep them to the side whenever I want to. Its been about 2 or more years since I had bangs. Feels really nostalgic. But those horrible bangs are long gone. Thank God.

Currently all I can say is a have a pretty full schedule this holiday. I'm fully packed this week, I'm going to Penang with university friends in about 2 weeks, I've been starting to work out again, and hoping I can lose some weight before that trip (cause there's going to be a LOT of eating). Hopefully I'll have the guts to vlog during my trip there.

Update summary (since last post):

1. I got a new Mac
2. I got a really cool ass ring. Looks like constellations
3. Constantly heading over Qian's new house to check out renovation progress
4. There's been constant fighting/arguments between my grandma and her children

 (and its putting everyone in a bad mood)

5. I failed econs

6. I bought a Spirited Away art book

7. I cut my hair cause I feel that having long hair is starting to get annoying

hiatus.

Really sorry for the long break on this blog. Its hard for me to find anything to blog to be honest. Ever since Sem 2, nothing much exciting has really happened in my life. You can tell from my Instagram posts. There's just hardly anything exciting to post about. Just CNY parties, more outings, KTV, and as you all saw it coming, drumroll please......DRAMA. Ugh. Nearly every week that I come home from Uni, there's definitely a tale or two to tell my mum about. She keeps telling me that there are more troublesome and dramatic people that will come into my life when I start working. Great. Really lazy to post any pics for this post cause they're all either in my phone or still in my camera, yet to be imported to my Mac. 

Lets see what else happened. Oh! I gained another kilogram. AND to top that cream on top with a cherry, my mum told me that she realized the weighing scale at home weighs 2 kilogram lighter. GREAT. SUBARASHI. WHAT WONDERFUL NEWS. Means I gained 3 kilogram at that instance. What a shitty Uni life I have. Poor grades, hot weather everyday, constant weight gain and my closest buddies aren't here with me. This semester has been really hectic I don't even know why? It just feels that my day just ends so quickly right after my classes end in a day. On another note, GST just happened 2 days ago. I bought all the groceries I needed as soon as possible. *asian alert*

Okay I guess the positive thing I can get from all this is at least there are quite a few drama free people in this place. I've been loving Steph's company ever since I got to know her. We don't chat on WhatsApp 24/7 or anything like that, but we just have a lot of topics to chat on about. We talk a lot whenever we have the chance to (which is usually only during lunch break or during Legal Concept lecture), and we always make plans that never really go to plan. BAHAHAHA. Like the other day we agreed on going cardio after class, and in the end we were just 'MEH'. I would say she lives in a completely different world from me (cause she's a complete extrovert), but I dunno. There's just quite a lot to talk about. Or at least she makes me feel needed and wanted in school cause she just gives hugs all the time. (Don't worry pai I still love you. HAHAHA)

Okay a summary here:
1. Ate shabu twice this year

2. Visited Stelly's school twice this year

3. Went out with twins and Tomato Warrior for quite a few Fridays

4. Went KTV and had KyoChon with Jas and Chia

5. Celebrated 3 birthdays so far? (Kyojin, Chee Sin, Tomato Warrior)

6. Went to IOI City Mall for the first time to watch Insurgent

 (laughed for the longest time in my life cause of Pey Ei. Thanks a lot.)

7. Highschool friends finally visited my house during CNY

8. I'm still struggling with deciding on whether to stay at UniVillage or not

9. Finally went to Connaught's famous pasar malam

10. SUPER BEAVER has been my recent obsession

11. Their album came out on April 1st. So far I've been loving the 2 song that has a MV

12. I hope I can buy their album ASAP

bye.

ongoing.

heyo.

Its been quite a while I updated on this space. A lot has been going on the past few weeks.

The last time I wrote a post, I was still preparing for finals, and whats worse was I was sick during the week of finals (which was last week). And I thought I was completely healed after my last paper, but NO. I fell sick yesterday. Much worse. Had a fever and I think I slept for 24 hours. Today I'm feeling quite okay, there's no telling what could happen tomorrow. I pretty much had no energy yesterday and kept on chugging down bottles of water. Man. Going to the toilet all day is no fun. And my mum just had to cook what I was craving for dinner yesterday while I was stuck with eating fruits. Well, I think I deserved all that. All I did right after finals, was binge watching Pinocchio. But not as crazy as compared to back when I was Form 2. Man that was crazy. Getting few hours of sleep just to watch every episode of 下一站幸福. Hehe. So I finished watching 19 episodes in 3 days, and I watched the final episode yesterday in bed, even though my eyes were burning, but meh. Its the final episode man. Happy ending. Have to watch. And besides, it was Friday yesterday. Means that it was Tokyo Ghoul Day. So have to watch episode 2 duh.

Okay.

Timeline on whats been happening ever since my last post.

Right after we completed BD finals, we headed off to Jusco Balakong to watch Mockingjay, then the next day after we double checked our assignment and turned it in, Yewen and Steph headed over to my place for "tea" cause it was pretty late and they still didn't have lunch yet. So I brought them to 103 Coffee Workshop.

Then we headed off to my house and we chatted A LOT. For I think about 2-3 hours?? Then they headed back home at around 5 or 6 pm.

Okay a few days before Christmas AnnSen just called us up for an early Christmas celebration cause he was going to being Europe during Christmas so we couldn't celebrate it on that day. We ended up playing Running Man. Man. It is TIRING. Really regretted wearing long sleeves and wearing jeans. So hard to run in jeans.

All covered in war paint. Which is pretty much just poster color.

Next off would be Comic Fiesta. Now I've been to my first Comic Fiesta back in 2012 when I was Form 4 and I really liked it which is why I decided to come back again. However I am kinda disappointed for this year's convention. Its too packed even though they expanded the venue a lot more compared to 3 years ago, but the crowd is just too much to handle. Overall, everything is good but its just too crowded to enjoy your time. And oh well! At least I got to get my Mirai Touch n Go card. Hehe.

So here's the story. A few days before the event, KahLook specifically stated to be at the LRT station at 6:30 in the morning. So I dragged my sleepy ass off the bed at 5:30 in the morning and picked up Ichigo and ShuYing to meet up with XinQi as well. 6:20 and the boys are still nowhere to be found. I called KhengYew and KahLook MANY times and they wouldn't pick up. So we all just decided to head off ourselves. 6:40am LRT, pretty empty.

I've definitely learnt my lesson, if I were to attend CF again this year, I'd definitely need a skateboard.

It is EXTREMELY EXHAUSTING. Since there's only 1 entry and 1 exit, you have to go all the way to the entry again if you wish to re-enter (which is like 4-5 halls distance). EXHAUSTION. My feet couldn't handle all the walking cause I was wearing flats. I was originally gonna wear my Converse so I kinda regretted that.

Met up with pai and jie and Chun for lunch at Sushi King, and pai brought her batch of peanut butter cookies made with love. Hehehe. Then we re-entered again for a final round before we went home but Chun didn't want to go in again cause he was really tired. He didn't sleep at all the night before. 

After our final round, ShuYing and XinQi wasn't ready to go home just yet so me and Ichigo took the LRT back home by ourselves. Hohoho thanks to my good sense of directions. Or else we wouldn't have made it home. Yeah and the next day my flu started, and made me suffer through finals. 

Then New Years happened with shitloads of wishes at 12 in the morning. On the 2nd of Jan we went to the Shabu place that Chun and Dailou have been talking about for like 5ever. But sadly last minute Dailou couldn't come cause it was his dad's birthday on that day and he forgot lol wtf.

In da caaaaaar.

After super satisfying dinner (and dealing with A LOT OF COCKROACHES), we went back to Stelly's house for polaroids. Oh and also she showed us the new Cempaka uniform and it was horrible. She said that when Sheila got her uniform, she cried. It was that bad.

 I like my legs here.

The ultimate candid shot. Everyone was unprepared.

My fav polaroid.

Of course there were a lot more but the rest are with le twins.

Okay I'm gonna end the post here. I'm getting a really bad headache right now. Ciao.

inequality.

This is a topic my mum has always mentioned to me. 

"Never be together or marry a guy who is less successful than you."

Sounds pretty biased huh?

The reason she gave me for this statement is apparently because I would be judged by society, or my husband would be jealous of my success or wealth. I asked her, what is there to be judged, just by being a woman of power? This was her response. 

"People would look at your husband as a useless man who depends on you."

Well excuse me for wanting to be a woman of status and power.

Then why are women not judged for being dependent on men? I think we are too caught up with the concept of women needing to step back down, lowering ourselves to make the male population look good, as they are constantly perceived as dominating and powerful beings. Why can't we strive for the best for ourselves and make ourselves feel proud and confident for being the best we can? Yes, you tell me "Look around the ladies who are more educated/successful than their husbands, they quarrel, get jealous just because the husband are just a step behind them." So does that mean that we, the female population wouldn't and shouldn't get jealous over the overpowering status or success of your significant other?

 I'm not saying this all revolves around jealousy, but shouldn't we at least have a choice on how we want to strive for the better? Heck, I've heard and seen quite a lot of my guy friends looking/falling for or being with a girl much better than them. And the reason they give would be: "I learn so much from her everyday.", "I'm proud to have a girl like her because she's just good at many things, and she makes me a better person." etc etc. Now before anyone throws shade at me about the statement: "Makes me a better person.", what I mean is about character development. Everyone changes their personality through the years by themselves, just putting your partner in the equation makes the same results. Just depends whether you're affected in a good or bad way. 

And I personally think that all this biased thinking should wear off. I hope this generation doesn't get the same thinking from our elder generation like a cold. Our elder generation should realise that there are people like Augustus Waters. 

As I quote him,

You never worry if she is smarter than you: You know she is.

He knows that Hazel is smarter than him, and he knows that being together with her hurts. But he is content from being with her because he likes his choice of who hurts him.

Its all about ego. If you don't mind the wealth, fame, popularity, success, 

none of that can stand in between you and your partner.

I am not saying that all women have to strive much better than men, 

but actually to be not afraid on bringing out your best and be the badass you are.

-

fear.

I know overthinking can lead to a lot of problems like insecurity, depression, anxiety etc. But I just can't help it. Its like our minds are programmed into this systematic routine that we just have to daydream and overthink. Now, ever since Uni started for me, I could hardly ever get enough sleep. Or to be precise, I don't get to give my system a rest during the appropriate times for rest. My sleeping schedule is all over the place, sleeping at unruly hours like 1 or 2 am, which is kinda normal for most of the people I know in Uni, but not for me. I've just recently noticed, that my hair fall problem is getting worse by the day. If not mistaken, it started getting serious during trial exams last year, and recently the amount is just unacceptable. Just within a week of not seeing my mum, the moment I came back home, she was really shocked to see my hair thin out a LOT. Now, I might be paranoid about the fact I didn't cut my hair short this year, causing the hair fall a lot worse. I dunno. Maybe. But I think that sleep would be the main factor of my hair fall. I've started sleeping beyond 11pm ever since trials.

Sigh.

Just the other day I went a little too far, thinking that I might be sick. As in serious condition. As I recall, from American Horror Story, the Supreme also had major hair fall problems while she was diagnosed with cancer or some sort? That made me start getting scared. I really really hope that isn't the case for me. The moment that thought came to me, I started pouring out my tears and breathed heavily. I'm always a strong believer that when you keep thinking about or accepting the fact of something, it will eventually happen. So I hope the thought of this matter would just get off my mind as soon as possible. I most definitely wouldn't want that to happen.

I will be fine.

I will be fine.

I have things to do,

people to meet,

and most of all,

places to be.

I am not brought to this world,

to see such pain and sorrow,

but instead,

get some gain and look forward tomorrow.

Okay.

Positivity.

Now that my study week (aka holidays) have begun, I'm spending this week as therapy. Bought some books from BBW, spent the whole day playing Pokemon and I'm heading to Ipoh and Penang for the next few days for a mini getaway to visit my cousin. Hopefully I can get this off my mind. And I'm trying my best to sleep early during this holiday.